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Change is possible…

Change is possible… but it has to begin with me.

The horse that was never wrong (for one day).

A good relationship is not one that thrives as long it is always kept in happy, predictable, safe places. That is actually a very weak relationship. A good relationship is one that can withstand challenges and unhappy feeling, that can stand firm in fear and stress even if it’s not pretty. A good relationship won’t disconnect in the messy unpredictability of real world circumstances.

A Whole New World

Despite challenges, we’ve found joy and provision in unexpected ways. \ Bringing the herd home has brought unexpected benefits, making the current season feel like a transition filled with hope for the future and excitement about the year ahead!

Do you want to know a secret?

But did I love the horse? I wanted to. I thought I did, and maybe I did in part, but not the way I have come to recently.

The Triple Crown

As for the endurance plans… I have come to a good place, and I’m certain there will be new mountains to climb next year, but it’s too far away to get wrapped up in that story yet… there are stories in between that need engagement first. Khaleesi is on a well deserved break for now with her herd.

The weight of a thought.

We were released with a couple other riders, and there were a couple just behind. This seemed set up well to help us motivate out into the long middle loop, and if we could just get past the magnetic thought field of base camp I knew she’d go along fine. Or so I thought… this did not look good at all…

Get busy livin’

I suppose it’s good that I’ve left her to benign neglect for the last year as she was not well, because I didn’t know how to help her, so letting her rest was probably not a bad season. Yet she’s come to a holding pattern where she hasn’t told me she’s ready to die, and yet she is still quite unwell. And I can’t see leaving her alone there any longer. As the quote goes (from the Shawshank Redemption) It’s time to get busy living, or get busy dying.

For want of a forward thought

For want of a nail the shoe was lost.For want of a shoe the horse was lost.For want of a horse the rider was lost.For want of a rider the message was lost.For want of a message the battle was lost.For want of a battle the kingdom was lost.And all for the want of aContinue reading “For want of a forward thought”

Twisted.

This is not the dynamic I want in my barn. This is not the dynamic I want in my life. When I feel that frustration rising in the dark space of my heart it is now a warning signal: you have become twisted again. Stop. Regroup. Begin again and ask: how can I help?

I thought I understood…

If we cannot meet fear with fear… then the better choice is to meet fear with LOVE. Love in fact, must have boundaries because connection is worth protecting.